I am a deathly bright ghost.

All is well in the realistic existance of Steven Bloom, it's just been a dragging of hot days and induced nights. I've had plenty of content and matter to fill a few pages here and there, but I've consolidated it all into nothiness flushed down my throat.


















This basically explains last Saturday night, which was a lot of fucking fun. Nagasaki, 'hoof-hoof!', dance dance dance, and too many cigarettes. (and no, that's not my reciept.)

I've been at my mothers since Monday, and when I got here I was one disguisting pile of trash. I had been wearing the same clothes for a few days, unfortunaetly bearing the same smell as a added bonus. Also, I went the longest I've ever gone without shaving (one week and one day) and I had a disguisting neckbeard-crawled-into-face-beard-with-scraggly-mustache. It felt like heaven shaving that off.

Ever since Tuesday I've been reliving the same day over and over. Wake up around 10:30, pour coffee, go drive around 'looking for jobs' (weakest excuse for...), skatepark for no more than one hour (Florida heat will kill someone) and then come home for shower/r'n'r until night time. Night time is spent reading, or fucking around with some charcoal and paper I have, then the internet fixation until late night/early morning... and repeat. I've got to break out! I really need a job, I'm running out of money. So far the most promising job is a 'night watch' at a hotel. Whoo! all nighters at a hotel...

Summer classes are going to be another reality wake-up, but I'm going to concentrate a lot more effieciently than I need to, cause classes in the summer... what?

Tomorrow is the day of the dead blah blah and I will spend it cleaning my room and throwing out atleast 70% of the bullshit I own, instead of drinking Tequila. Boo.

I'm proud to say I've been eating a lot healthier and am doing semi-decent on the giving up of coca-cola. I consume so much water, I think I'm drowning.
















































Here is a copy of my rock solid reoccuring list-ees...(That is verbatim... no joke, and no - it shouldn't make sense to you.)
1. learn to cook
2. dj (not the kind you think)
3. daily clothes
4. 2200 dollars
5. grow hair
















































PLAYLIST FOR WEEK OF 5/1-5/7
1. Stone Roses - Turn To Stone
2. Cat Power - You Are Free (FUCKING 'I DONT BLAME YOU' GIVES ME THE BEST CHILLS, EVER. LISTEN TO IT)
3. The Velvet Underground - The Velvet Underground
4. Morrissey - Ringleader of the tormentors
5. Susie Suh - S/T

READING LIST FOR 5/1-5/7
1.) Jean Paul Sartre - Nausea
2.) Hermann Hesse - Steppenwolf
3.) Vice Mag - The Drug Issue
4.) Jean Paul Sartre - Existentialism and Human Emotions

SLEEP FOR THE NOW, IT'S GETTING LATE AND OUR EYES ARE SOUR.

nightnight.