I use to know where I could find myself.
Time flies even when you're not having fun. I don't think I'll ever adjust to the whole aging, growing up thing. I have felt irresponsible, free, and vulnerable (sixteen) for the past three years. I'm just going to continue to tell myself one day I'll wake up and realize money matters, love isn't really imperative (come on, who'm I foolin'?), and lifes going to purge itself... I think that whole process is called college graduation?
Fuck everyday is supposed to be a step up, but I'm stuck flat as a deck on this level. There's got to be this revelation or something's got to explode in front of my face (real soon), right?
I have exactly three more days of classes, but it's going to feel like more. I'm not looking forward to sleeping, or eating at all because it will just make me throw up.
Here, I'm just going to be honest, I'm not too excited about summer... nothing is really holding my eyes open at night, no hopes are standing on my chest, and there's no possible relation-I-love-this-unknown-feeling situation going on. Oh well, I'll just stick to nothingness and try to save some money and buy some more things I feel I need.
In all honesty, I wish I were staying in New York City, lately I've felt I have had this longing and need of being there. I just want to be in the atmosphere and around it all. I want to sleep through most the day and forget most the night. I also want to invest in new longsleeve shirts, and get a gas station job (in NYC)... but that wont happen (is this where college comes in?)
This is what I've sort of been listening to non stop, I have about half the album, I need to buy the other half. a.s.a.p.
And this is what Sara had sent me today, mid-way a very intense conversation of music, bad music, and the ice-berg of global warming. Eddie plays tennis, but Sara sent me this... thanks...
Of course this site is being a burden, and the upload icon will not function for me. It's back to normalcy (messy rooms, half-written papers, and diet cokes) for me. More in-depth, pictures, opinions next time (don't I say this everytime?)
I felt something, then I found out something, so I'm over something.
Sleep easily for once.
Fuck everyday is supposed to be a step up, but I'm stuck flat as a deck on this level. There's got to be this revelation or something's got to explode in front of my face (real soon), right?
I have exactly three more days of classes, but it's going to feel like more. I'm not looking forward to sleeping, or eating at all because it will just make me throw up.
Here, I'm just going to be honest, I'm not too excited about summer... nothing is really holding my eyes open at night, no hopes are standing on my chest, and there's no possible relation-I-love-this-unknown-feeling situation going on. Oh well, I'll just stick to nothingness and try to save some money and buy some more things I feel I need.
In all honesty, I wish I were staying in New York City, lately I've felt I have had this longing and need of being there. I just want to be in the atmosphere and around it all. I want to sleep through most the day and forget most the night. I also want to invest in new longsleeve shirts, and get a gas station job (in NYC)... but that wont happen (is this where college comes in?)
This is what I've sort of been listening to non stop, I have about half the album, I need to buy the other half. a.s.a.p.
And this is what Sara had sent me today, mid-way a very intense conversation of music, bad music, and the ice-berg of global warming. Eddie plays tennis, but Sara sent me this... thanks...
Of course this site is being a burden, and the upload icon will not function for me. It's back to normalcy (messy rooms, half-written papers, and diet cokes) for me. More in-depth, pictures, opinions next time (don't I say this everytime?)
I felt something, then I found out something, so I'm over something.
Sleep easily for once.
posted by Stevie Bloom at 6:18 PM
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